I don't normally like to talk about surgery. There are people in my family that made a career out of talking about every surgery they ever had. They even go into detail. Now come on who what's to hear that. Be truthful. You don't want to hear it. I know I did not want to hear it. On the other hand you may get some useful information from what another went through with a surgery. If you are going to have the same kind...well you just may want to hear every detail. There is a good chance there may be something that will help you when you have to have the same kind of surgery. So. here I go again. You have a choice. As choice to learn from others and a choice not to listen and be scared.
And there is the one that is scared to talk about the surgery they had. They do not want to remember. It may not have been that bad. But, you came out of it a different person or you look different. I know after my eye surgery I did not want to talk about it. I did not want to even be seen. When I was finely able to put makeup on again ..well I looked like a clown . Even though I put it on the same way as I did before. I did not understand that at all. Or may be it was just me. But, there I go again. I was afraid to go out in public, afraid to look in a mirror and afraid to take pictures.
Then I realized something. I was talking to people on the internet and there were those getting ready to have the same eye surgery I had. And they were so afraid of the unknown. So afraid to have this eye surgery. Boy, do I remember how that felt. My heart went out to them. I wanted to easy their fear. So, I put my fear aside and collected photo' of myself. Before and after my Thyroid Eye Disease started. Pictures that showed the progress, they pain, the change. I cried the whole time I was making it. I don't know how many times I had to stop. To remember was not only painful but yes scary. Did I really want to let anybody see these pictures of me? No, I did not. When I was finely done making the DVD. It sat there for a bit. Two people knew I was making it and asked for a copy. One had already had Thyroid Eye Surgery and the other had not. PAt who has thyroid eyedisease.weebly put my Video and his on his website. An other copy I sent to Claire in Ireland. Since then it has been put up on youtube. Now the whole world could seen me at my worse. Now that is scary. But if it helps just ONE person . Just one....then two...then three. Was it worth me being scared and crying .........YES!!! Would I do it again....YES! Will I still cry when I watch it...........YES! Sorry done for today